Current mood: angsty
Category: Life
I haven't come close to my computer for a while. The MS which was playing uo a bit kicked the shit out of me. Currently I have spasms which don't even creep up. They arrive down my right side crippling everything in in a Boris Karlof fashion, with accompanying Frankenstein sound effects. Its scary as shit, but once I figured out I wasn't gonna drop dead, annoying and debilitating. I had to quit out of Edinburgh because I'm only recentlybeen able to talk, can't really walk that well and spasms unexpectedly but very firmly occur whenever my body feels like it.
Oh yeah america your doctors are good. your health care insurance system is fucking shit. Any health care system which is based on profit for the insurance companies is uncivilised and embarrassing. Wake up, you are nearly out of time. The stress this system puts your workers under, is the least healthy thing I have ever seen. I say workers because I thought I'd use phrasing that even those idiots who rage against an equitable system can understand.
I never been anywhere that keeps repeating how great it is over and over, miss the basics so badly.
And relax...
So no Edinburgh, bad health, could be worse.....
Currently watching:
NCIS Naval Criminal Investigative Service - The Fifth Season
Release date: 2008-08-26
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Sunday, May 31, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Party like its 1993 (fuck)
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Current mood:acceptance
When I say party like its 1993 ,I mean the year just previous to me knowing what the fuck was going on. Maybe it was earlier? Fuck who cares, this is what happened.
I was gigging, still sharing with my mate Neil when I started to have spasms down my eight hand side, pretty constantly. I gigged on this and remember being on stage at the Hampstead comedy club,in front of a very close up audience and hitting a spasm as I walked on. It was quite amazing relly, the audince didn't know if it was part of the act, and my follow up of 5 minutes on what you think of during a CAT scan (sex) and how trying to stop this is how brain aneurysums occur, confused them all the more.
I mention this because thats whats been going on. Its weird. I can barely functon in the day, am kept up by the twitching then can't function the next day. I haven't talked to people back home about it as I can't really talk.
If I haven't returned a call, for once, it actually is not you. It is me.
The spasms are backing off a bit but I don't know what it means. I know Beth is very patient. This crap has been coming for a couple of years.
I know this. MS is a fucking bastard and I hate its guts.
Thing is when it gets bad I cut everyone off and head for the depths of my brain, the one place I definitely shouldn't be living. After years of this you would think I would of worked this out.
So I intend to chill a lot. Anyone I haven't been in touch with, my apologies....
Current mood:acceptance
When I say party like its 1993 ,I mean the year just previous to me knowing what the fuck was going on. Maybe it was earlier? Fuck who cares, this is what happened.
I was gigging, still sharing with my mate Neil when I started to have spasms down my eight hand side, pretty constantly. I gigged on this and remember being on stage at the Hampstead comedy club,in front of a very close up audience and hitting a spasm as I walked on. It was quite amazing relly, the audince didn't know if it was part of the act, and my follow up of 5 minutes on what you think of during a CAT scan (sex) and how trying to stop this is how brain aneurysums occur, confused them all the more.
I mention this because thats whats been going on. Its weird. I can barely functon in the day, am kept up by the twitching then can't function the next day. I haven't talked to people back home about it as I can't really talk.
If I haven't returned a call, for once, it actually is not you. It is me.
The spasms are backing off a bit but I don't know what it means. I know Beth is very patient. This crap has been coming for a couple of years.
I know this. MS is a fucking bastard and I hate its guts.
Thing is when it gets bad I cut everyone off and head for the depths of my brain, the one place I definitely shouldn't be living. After years of this you would think I would of worked this out.
So I intend to chill a lot. Anyone I haven't been in touch with, my apologies....
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