Loss.

I know I haven't dealt with my nan's death yet. I've been back, meeting people I hadn't seen for a long time, having a lot of fun, but I know i haven't accepted her loss properly. I can feel that it is coming, I just don't know when. it wasn't at her funeral, not even when I saw her in the casket at the funeral home. So when? No idea, but its going to be messy when it gets here.